2nd Day in my JC

Overcoming myself
I guess i still feel Strange when i looked at people that i dunno. I guess it is a feeling of dunno what the other party expects. I guess, what i can do is to pray mroe to God to overcome any shyness that i have. So that i will be able to get out of my shell and shine for Him.

Prayer is Key
Pray to God that he will give me the importance of the big pictures, so much so that i will be energized to go ahead with no fears in the face of "Strangers". I pray for clarity of thoughts and of speech so that every single words that i used or say will be pleasing to the lord and will be useful for building people up. It will also be useful to "wire" knowledge over from Myself to the Students.

Busyness
I have received my timetable and i realized that i have 5 classes to teach. 1 Pw and 3 H2 Econs and 1 H1 Econs. Sort of expected this kinda of timetable. Though teaching have not started. The school induction and the discussion to standardize exams have taken up most of my time this week.

One thing i want to give thanks for
I give thanks to God for giving me such a nice environment. That i feel very much supported with the training and induction that i have been receiving from the VP, HOD and my colleagues here. Indeed, i can see myself staying in this school for long. I give thanks to God for people who are able to convey their expectations clearly. I give thanks for these people who communicates well the mission, vision and values of these organization that i can aligned myself with so easily. Just as a key fits into a keylock, i found myself to fit well into this organization. Thank God.

Looking forward to the next day.

Taking a leap of faith

I feel quite well settled into AJC. It is no longer a lonely long road which i first experience when i first did my practicum.

Instead of that, i truly feel that i am surrounded by people who wants to make a difference. Making a difference in the lives of the students.


Addressing my own fears
unless the lord builds the house, the builder build in vain,
Unless the lord watches over the city,
the watcher stand guard in vain.

Indeed, what i have to do is to commit everything i have to the lord. Trust in the lord with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding and he will give you the desire of your heart.

I pondered over the reasons why i would be afraid when i am among a sea of stranger (>5 students in a class for e.g.) I reckon that it is because, there is always a desire to build better impression. To want to impress others. But i reason to myself, Who do i want to impress? Impress God or Impress the students. I would like to do things for the lord.

Praise God that i am able to fulfil his calling. Being a teacher when my talents might not be exactly developed that. I pray to the lord to be given the talents. I pray to the lord so that the passion of my heart can be fulfilled. It has been some time since i last has an excitement in my heart. An excitement in my heart in the job that i am going to do. An excitement that i can make a difference.

Today i took the leap of faith in doing something that i have not done before. That is i am going to lecture soon. I know this day will come and it will just be a matter of time. I will have faith to trust God that everything is possible and that he will lead me to be a great teacher that is filled with the passion to lead students and allow them to grow to become great leaders of future.

Thank God.
Regards,
Qinlong

Photoshoots and some random thoughts.

Today, went for a photoshoot with Dear. It was time well spend with both of us enjoying the process of the photoshoot.

Lyn and her friend ask us how we first met and we narrate the scenario to them. With that story as the backdrop, they created a story with the photos that we took.

Enjoy the time spend with Yating. I guess making her happy makes my day. I think i can be easily satisified.

Went to my friend, daryl's wedding today. I were reminded of how quiet and reserved i can be. Besides the groom, i do not know any of his friends there. (As he didnt invite the rest of the secondary school friend). I guess it is really my character to be very much reserved and keep to myself. Guess, i just like being myself.

There are many things on my mind. I think i am on the path of knowing myself even better. I remember, back in My NUS days, Ivan did mentioned before that i am competitive. Well, i didnt agree to that. His viewpoints were further resonated with the viewpoints of some of my NIE friends who said the same things. I think, this still depends on my circumstances. If the occasion requires me to win, i would like to rise to the occasion to win. Nonetheless, i demand myself to put in the greatest effort i can input.

Just thinking of my strength of the desire to win and play games, i thought to myself. How good would it be if i can play games everyday. Pisstop cafe came across my mind as a possible avenue to look into.

But i still know, God has called me to work into the life of the youth. I want to be good role model for youth to follow after and i will want to take after Lord Jesus Christ image. Will pray to be more like him and less like myself.