Euphoric sense of well being

Things started off this morning with a slow crawl. The first thing that i planned didn't go well as i wanted it to be. Haha. Make an appointment with my mother last night at 1.45 a.m while she was preparing supper for me that we should go eat breakfast tomolo, together at Tanjong Pagar. Wanted to wake up at 6a.m in order to do that, but to my dismay, the Alarm Clock show an urgent face of 7.16a.m. Sigh, so in the end, didn’t manage to eat breakfast with my mum. But I will try again soon. =P

Got to rush to Suntec. Suppose to go for church at 9, meet Cell group at Suntec at 8.45 and Yating, at city hall at 8.30. Rite! Being late for an event is equivalent to being late for 3 appointments! No!! I can't be late. Therefore I was rushing from point to point in order to keep up with the appointment timing. Well, God is gracious to me. He allowed miracles to happen. I managed to keep to the timing for the 3 events.

That was how I kick start my day!!

Okay, I got to admit it. Today, I feel very happy and blessed.
Firstly, Kenny blessed Yt and me by sending us to serangoon, somewhere nearer to Yt's house. Thanks for being so kind to us so often. Really appreciate it lots!

My plans for today were simple. Firstly, church, do a small part of my readings, go swimming with Yt and her bro and meet up with a good friend of mine in the evening. The best part is I manage to fulfill all!!

Everything went according to plans. And on top of that, today I received much encouragement from my cell leader and my good friend. My cell leader shows understanding and kindness by blessing me with kind words. I realized that I can be very happy just to receive kind words from people, when they mean what they say of course.

In the evening, i meet up with Joanna. Haven't seen her for a long time. Wow, and she treated me to dinner, Manhattan at PS. Sorry to let u pay for the expenses and I felt quite bad after that, to let a gal treat me, but i promised to treat her back next time. It feels good to be around in ur friend's presence. Just to sit down, chit chat and understand what is happening in one's other life. Feels really nice to have meet up.

Wanna give thanks to Yating for being understanding and for trusting me. =P And i really enjoyed the swimming with u and ur brother. Though, I were the one doing most of the swimming. I.e. her bro were doing trap water while as usual, Yating swam a few laps. Okay, to her credit, she shows improvement lah.. Got 8 laps lo! Way to go, Yating. U have really become a bit more active in exercising since 1 year ago!! U have done well. Keep it up!

Anyway, Waileong has been busy with his projects and work, hope that u be able to balance out the things that u have got to do and that u will continue to find strength and perseverance in doing it! You can do it!

Lastly, but not least, I shall continue with my aspiration to run the marathon and the Nus Heritage Run. Though there are still some obstacles here and there, I will continue to believe and continue to train hard! Yeah yeah yeah!!!

Okay, till i blog again...
Take care dear friends..

Apology to Yating, Hi to Waileong and had a great timeW last night.

Firstly, my sincere apology to Yating for being such a mean person yesterday. I think what was discuss last night by Magician Pastor Khong make sense for me too. He discussed about the fears that everyone have. About the vacuum in ones' heart and spirit. No doubt, I am also an imperfect person. Inside me, fears and vacuum also arises occasionally. I feel that recently, I haven’t been very much aligned with god. This is because, I have been trying to lead a balanced life that I planned and controlled. So much so that, it has become a norm for me to want to be certain of the future by trying to plan ahead. No doubt, there was a vacuum in my heart, one that soars from the depth of emptiness.

Said something mean to her yesterday. Didn’t mean it yesterday, apologize to her but still couldn’t forgive myself for saying that. I feel so bad. But after a bout of anger, she understood enough to forgive me. Sorry for hurting u. I would want to continue to serve God with my heart.

Saw Waileong on the way to Suntec. Mm.. A Friend who I always treasure lots since Sec school. Someone who is always there for me in times of needs. In terms of physically and mentally. Whilst on the way to Suntec with my OG friends through the bridge to Suntec, I saw him walking pass me in the opposite direction. Or actually he saw me first. =P Anyway, hope to meet up with u soon! =P

Had a great time yesterday at the spook show. Wanzi, Kenny and me seems to have uncovered some of the magic tricks or so called illusion in the show. However, much of it remains puzzling and amazement filled my heart. It has been a long time since a big crowd like this gathered. Feels the affinity and bondages again last night whilst having supper at Burger King. We chit chat it feels and its feels good to have this kind of gathering once more. =P

Could see that Yenleng was feeling tired for the whole day. This is because she had an 8am lecture since morning and she is not a morning person!! Could notice her head dropping off at times in the magic show.. Though the magic were quite enchanting at certain moments. haha.. nonetheless, thanks for the effort in coming man!!

Jane seems to be enjoying her hostel life as usual. Full-time hostel and part-time student. What can u say right. But seemingly, most of us agreed that it is the last 2 sems for many of us, and we should continue to pia and do our utmost. I always like to parallel it to the running of marathon. Okay, I miss running. =<
Anyway, because Jane has been playing badminton regularly in hall, I ask her to cio me when she got 'no friends to play with'. She replied with a, "sorry ah, no possible to have no friends in hall to play badminton with." Wah seh, too much friends and less people to do sport with me le.

Anyway, the company was great and the event is good. I would like to continue to pursue a balanced life with god at the highest priorities. Have to reminded myself and continue to stay committed each day. Anyway, c ya people soon!

Heritage Run

Saw the huge poster outside the library and it immediately caught my attention. NUS Heritage 10km run. WOw. Its amazing. I think NUS is organizing a centennial run to celebrate NUS for reaching 100 years old. Sounds like fun? Den dun wait.. sign up now!!


Went to Yating's house again today. Finally understands the misery of the long, excruciating, hot rides on 151 (one of the bus that is usu not equipped in air conditioning) Actually need to take approximately 1.3hrs to reach. Wah seh!! Anyway, cailing mentioned on going to JB one of this days. It sounds interesting, perhaps we can discuss that further. =P

Anyway, yenleng was nice yesterday. Waited for me for a SHOrt while in order to go back with me. THANKs!! haha, and she was nice enough to take a long ride back home in order to accompany me!! Haha, though she regretted it lots later, after realizing that there was "jue dui Superstar". =P

Recently, have been learning to try to think critically. Perhaps, i am improving a bit. However, i realize that the more i try to analyse and think, the less happy i get. Is there really a correlation?

Feels tired.. just need to have a good rest, till i blog again.
Take care dear friends!

Anna's birthday and negative reinforment to curb behavior

Went for Anna's birthday on sat and my initial kindness turn into disaster when i predict the amount of food i should take to serve people. As i was serving my friends with noodles, Yt, being right next to me, definitely caught my attention first. Serve her with a bit of noodle which apparently were enough for her. She dun eat much, i dunno why.. Next, Yanling, den Thomas. The servings seems appropriate until when it come to flo, Anna's boyfriend. Perhaps sublimely, i thought that he is a big eater and instinctively, i just give him a serving that big that can be considered 1.5 times the portion that i usu eat for a meal (without any dishes)
Suddenly, realizing my foolhardy, the mountain heap of noodles have been lay out nicely on his plate. Feeling a bit embarrassed that i actually gave him so much to eat, i ask him whether if he could finished a not. He says, he can and it is just a matter of time. Seem like he was being polite and i couldn't help but feel bad for the thing i have done.

Wow!! Today i woke up at 8 plus, so as to look at the forum. Gosh, my film and history forum is so active and this is actually the first time i tried to participate actively in any forum. Feel Very good after posting. Anyway, still trying to remain focus so as to lead a balanced life. Still aiming to run the marathon. Couldn’t do much training. But i was happy enough to get to run a total dist of 5.5km at near 12 noon. =P

Today, as i went to school, Yating suddenly appeared from behind and together with her was ML. ML was talking to me about giving Yating some forms of negative reinforcement if she still dun want to put her "expensive 4 mths haven't used since passing, license" to good use.
Negative reinforcement include not sitting with her during lecture!! AIyo!! Dunno if it is negative reinforcement for me or her sia..
Haha.. But i guess, that these ideas are interesting and i think it is great. It Seems as if they are challenging one another to greater heights. Hope that the stronghold of fear will be overcome.

Still trying my best to lead a balanced life. Keep in contact dear friends. Take care dear friends. Hope to meet up with all soon. Tata for now.

WIth love,
Qinlong

Feeling a bit emotional.

Sometimes as i try to analyse myself and think about what i have been doing, i feel so emotionally upset. THough as much as i would like to be part of my friend's life, sometimes, somehow or rather, i have not been doing as much. As a consequence, with that reflection and rumination, it dampen my spirits a bit. However i know that to be happy or not is ultimately a choice that i can choose. Right now, i will continue to decide to stay happy and continue to strive for a balanced life.

Well, update my life a bit. On the 19th, Yating and I went for a volunteer tuition . Initially, felt a bit 'rejected' by the kids, it is as though, through their charming innocent, they had put up a skit of not wanting to get to know us. Gee, but kids are truly innocent and they are just a whole bunch of nice and cutie little pies. Small children who deserve love and care in every sense. However, not very sure on how i can help. This is because, my student, seems to be a bit playful and at the moment, she can't prioritise yet. thus i feel that she must be neglecting her studies to a certain extent. But still i will try my best in fulfiling my role as a senior, mentor or tuition teacher.

Have been very busy lately, trying to pack my events back to back. Hardly had any time to breath. THus this could have contribute to me feeling stressed and a bit sian. Luckily, in the nick of time, Reality dawned on me . Sat down and thought things out clearly. Some of my friends were really encouraging as they msged me online when i seems unhappy. Thanks to the people who put in their time and effort to show me their care and concern. Really felt love and touched by your actions. Next, thanks to my dear dear, who still show concern for me when i am down and out. ANd last but not least, to the holy god who is there to lift up my head to face reality.

Okay, back to life and i still wanna stay focused on the goals that i have set. Perhaps, the road ahead isn't too easy but i will continue to stay determined. Trying to lead a balanced life. DUn think that this is easy but i keep trying. ANyway, continue to stay true to urself and lastly, just wanna say Happy Birthday to IVAN, Anna and my Sister, winnie on the 20th of August. Hope u all enjoyed ur birthday and have a great year ahead. =P

Feels Truly so happy today!!

Firstly, just wanna give thanks to Kenny. THanks for giving all the intellectual advices. Ur words are filled with wisdom and seemingly well thought out. Appreciate it lots. Haha. =P

Secondly, Yesterday was my 1 year 5 mths anniversary with my dear dear. Because i have so many lessons on wed. i.e. from 8a.m. to 7p.m. Forseen this and we have celebrate this day earlier. Still, i was very happy and thrilled to be able to eat something that she has cooked. Well, from someone who doesnt know how to interpret whether if a food is cooked or not. Really appreciate it lots for her effort and thoughts. ANd yes!! COntrary to ur beliefs, the food that she make was quite nice. Fried rice is one of my favourite food. On top of that, i was offered a glass of icy cool Ribena to go along with my fried rice. Yummy!! But, still, when ask by her mum whether the fried rice was good. I replied that it was nice but the ingredients such as fishcake and meat was a bit too big. Only did i realized later that it was her mum's way, her style to cut big serving size. Oh no!! hope i have offended no one!! =P

ANyway, today my sister hold a birthday party at a chalet at e national service country club. IT was quite cool. I feel really happy to celebrate with her. Especially to mingle around with my cousin. Both were very young. age 14 and 10. I really enjoyed and have so much fun just chatting and playing silly games with them. This include heart attack, "Di di Ta ta lia" and some other silly finger games.
I think it is reallys o fun to chat with kids and play games with them. It just open me up so naturally And i just love that kinda feelings. Perhaps i should find a job to work with kids in the future. I think i will love it. Perhaps this is my passion. Still working towards what the uncertain future lies ahead. But hoping that the lord, will reveal his purpose for me in this world and i would want to do it with a total committed heart!!

HAPpy Birthday SIster!!! Hope u have a great time!! =P

On A Marathon Plan

Feeling Quite Euphoric today. Perhaps, it can be somewhat called the runner's high.
Went With Miss Teo to the gym in Hougang today. We agreed to go together thinking that, just a few scarce people will be hanging around there. However, we were both wrong. There were considerably quite a no. of people. The Crowd mainly comprises of students i guess.

Embarking on a marathon plan, i was quite determined to have a run after the gym sessions. Luckily, Miss Teo supported my idea. And this was the area that i was quite happy about. Have been waiting to timed my runs for such a long while already, however, without proper devices, i haven't been timing my runs.
Decided to have a fitness test of a 2.4km run and i started running at about the max speed that the treadmill could possibly allowed. I figure out that to achieve the guards gold standards, my first lap of 400metres at 1.45 is far way to slow. Thus i adjusted the running speed to the maximum. Finally!! I ran 2.4 in 9.16. YES!! Though i need to cut off at least another 2 secs to achieve guards gold, i am already quite satisfied with my current quo status. IT is great to get back into fitness once again. So if any of u people wanna go for a run, just give me a ring okay? We can arrange some runs together. And that will be interesting.

MM.. the new sem justed started already. Trying to juggle btw all the different commitments that i have> Feeling quite blessed and happy to try to squeeze every single sec to make myself productive. However, with this added dimension of studying and modules, think will have less time for many other stuff already.

Anyway, one of my good friend has been feeling a bit vex and troubled in his work life recently. PErhaps it is the Responsiblity of working, the Overtime he have to fork out whilst studying and other different stressors from different aspects of his life. Just wanna to encourage this friend of mine to stay focused and hope the lord will bless him with manifolds of returns for his hard work renderer. I believe that you will be able to reap what u sow. Jiayou.. =P

Lastly, i feel that sometimes, we get cheated of our feelings by our friends. Like when they say, lets take the same module and suddenly, they could change their minds to take something else. Mm, really a bit irresponsible. If i am the one who is cheated, i believe i will feel as frustrated and upset. Perhaps i should take more care and responsibility in the things that i say and do as well. So that whatever i do will be able to build people up and not put stumbling blocks on people path. Anyway, though, much hurt and frustration have result from such an incident, dun get too angry for it is not worth it. Guard our heart from unneccessary hurts like this. Rise above that.

Anyway, New Sem, New Headache, New Learning, New problems, New Solution>
*What lies in the future is uncertain. Look foward to the future, treasure the present and learn from the past

OG gathering

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Just went for an OG gathering yesterday. Thanks to everybody who make an effort to come. Those who have been busy and make it a point to reshuffle their busy schedule, i.e. suppose to have tuition that day but postpone it, in order to come. People who come at night after the whole day of tiresome events from playing floor ball. And lastly, to all the dedicated and responsible planners, who kept planning and organizing outing for the OG. THanks to all that make the outing a success. Haha, it was really fun to catch up with u all people, to spend time chatting, joking and trying to compete who will be the first to fall asleep.

WOw! Time really flies and it has been two years since we know one other. It has been great knowing u people and every single meeting of the OG has always been so enjoyable. Even though sometimes people gang up against me.
During our dinner time, someone commented,

"hey, Qinlong, how come ur hair look like this, u went for the $10 haircut rite."
Me: feeling a bit impressed by his inference and innocently i responded,
"How did u know?
"Coz ur hair got the $10 look... Wahahah...*Burst into laughter*
and the more i try to ask whats wrong with my Nice $10 haircut look, the more i get confused by their laughter. Mm.. up till now, i really can't tell what is so funny about my nice $10 haircut.. hahahaha

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Den i realizd the guy who ask me about the $10 haircut was not out to shame me lah.. coz he told me that actually he went for a $8 one.

Aiya, that is my Da_leo OG, so crappy, interesting and funny.
Anyway, it is really great to know u people! Thanks for being my rainbow. =P

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Went back to boon lay with Yt and Yl. YL is suppose to go to a mentoring school near boon lay whereas, my dar dar came over to my house to prepare a sumptous meal. I think, it was really a great and interesting idea that she came up with. Treasure the time spend together to get the ingredients and cook the curry. Haha, yt was literally reading out from the instruction on the box as i cook the curry!! Thanks ah yating. COnsidering that this is the first time that yt cook, i think that the standard was quite good. The curry was quite nice( at least to me, just that the potatos was a bit too hrad.)
However, Yt seems to be able to pick up culinary skills quite fast lo, able to cook two near perfect ham omelette nicely. Well done.

Yl came over in the evening to try out the curry. Hahah, i think she wasnt really impressed la. haha. But, dun be disappointed, this is just our first trial. More to come. Sure can improve in the future.

Last but not least, i feel so good now, still able to follow my schedule to train for my marathon. Did a speed training today, and i like it so much. 0.28km of sprinting and 0.28 of turtle speed running. 8 rounds of each was accomplished. It was awesome to run like that. Feel so much alive again. Reliving the experience that i used to have. THough seems to be a bit tired, but my legs seems to be moving by itself! ITS ALIVE!! =P
More training to come.

ANyway, To NUs Friends,
School reopening soon! Enjoy ur holidays whilst u can and c ya all around in school
and to Sec friends,
our plan to scale mountain and hills in not afar. Lets meet up again to plan soon! Take care people!!

Hi everybody!! Qinlong is back!!!

I Am back

To all friends who has been patiently waiting for me to update my blog, hope that this is worth the wait! Mr QINLONG is back!! ALive a and Kicking once again. =P Oh, just to update everybody, my lappie just survived a bad week after its harddisk crashes..

WOw, it has been really quite a fulfilling holiday, as i try to jam packed all events together, trying to achieve everything that i always want to in this period of time. Mm.. Cannot really say that i have been through a lot of hardships during this sem break. But it seems that i am beginning to look at things from a different angle of life. Actually, it is GREAT to be alive. Just wanna count my blessing for every single things that i have. BE it great friends, who always stand by me to my dar dar, who is always around, i Love this place. Love this land, loving every single moments of my life.

haha, oh pls, of course, my life isn't perfect, however, everything imperfect can be make perfect. The bible says, we can find strength in trouble for our lord is the god of all COmfort.

"the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from the GOD." -2Cor3-4

Actually if u people really think that i am a happy soul every single moment, this is not true. Everyone have their up and down lo. And i do feel unhappy too in time of trials. But just wanna let anybody who read my blogs see this. Trials will make us a stronger person, lets not give up the fight whenever we are faced with rejection, trials or things that doesn't have a solution.For everything happens for a purpose and trials will build u up. Let love rule the world, be it friendship love, relational love, brotherly love or any kinda.. This is because love never fails and will not pass away. it always endures, always trust, always hope, always perseveres.

Just hope that the love of this world will not passaway, but sister and brother, i urges everyone to do things in love, lets strive to work towards the goods of another!! Take care people!!